Daily Update ft. Brain Fog

Advanced apologies for anything odd or rambly in this post, I'm in a rather thick brain fog that hasn't left in days but I felt the need to update.

I've mentioned in my past few posts that I have been struggling more and more with nausea, vomiting, stomach cramps, and getting full too early. I've also mentioned the fact that I haven't been able to keep solid food down for the past few days. The past few days has now become the past week or so. That's a week or so of tomato soup, a week or so of smoothies and juice, a week or so of dairy free milkshakes. More importantly, it's been a week or so of less than 500 calories each day.

As someone with a chronic illness, I've found that I need even more energy (ie: food to be turned into energy) in order to function at all. My muscles have to work overtime, doing their own job as well as taking over for my stretchy ligaments; this means I need more calories and protein to keep them going without withering away. Episodes of tachycardia means I occasionally burn calories like a fitness junkie just from standing up. On days when my seasonal allergies act up and drag my asthma with them (read as "every single day in the dusty and pollen filled state of Alabama), it takes more energy than usual for me to breathe like I need to.

In reality, my body probably needs close to twice the amount of (healthy) sugars, proteins, and calories than that of the average person in order to maintain where I am currently. That's an issue when you consider the fact that it's taken me over a week to get in a day and a half, maybe two day's worth of normal caloric intake.

I've been dizzy and weak, I've been tired and spacey, cold, out of it. I haven't been myself. I have spells of brain fog so thick that I forget how to read, and these spells can last for hours or even days. I'm losing weight fast, and that's a dark dark road to go down when you're sick. I don't even want to think about my blood sugar and what my blood glucose level must be at right now. All I know is that I am a nonfunctional blob that is whithering and getting worse at an alarming rate.