Personal Update: iPhone Accessibility, Smoothies, and an All Around Bad Time

Warning to those of you with stomachs more sensitive than mine: this post will mention vomit on more than one occasion and will discuss lots of digestive issues.

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In recent weeks I've been having more and more problems with my stomach. It's been getting even slower, and has become more and more picky as to what it will and will not reject (and I mean literally reject). Over the past few days it's basically rejecting anything solid (save the occasional organic corn chip eaten to neutralize acidity), and I've been stuck with juices and smoothies. Even then I find myself puking bits of that into my mouth more often than I would like. I can't say I enjoy a diet of V8 juices, Naked juice, and yellow Gatorade. I also can't say I enjoy spending all of my time curled up in bed covered in heating pads in an effort to cope with stomach cramps.

On top of that shitshow, I've been having recurring migraines this week that have sent me into a tailspin. Those mixed with more fatigue than usual and the aforementioned digestive issues means I have been effectively bedridden all week long. These migraines have gotten so bad that I had to tinker with my phone's accessibility options just to communicate with the outside world. Turning the white point down has made it easier to look at the screen for a few moments at a time, it reads the words I type aloud as I finish typing each one (helpful when your vision is so blurry you're essentially drunk texting your boyfriend), and a screen reader has allowed me to spend less time looking at my screen at all. And who can forget the blessing that is "Hey Siri, text so and so" and "Hey Siri, call Papa" because it's absolutely glorious.

The biggest concern when it comes to these issues (and the fact that they're getting worse) is that it's going to impede my ability to work as much as I need to. I'm already down to a max of two days a week due to the broken air conditioner at work causing POTS flares; I'm worried about how these migraines, my increasing fatigue levels, and my ability to keep anything down is going to affect my work. Given the fact that I still have nine months left on my lease and I'm not working nearly enough to cover a quarter of my half of the rent - let alone feed myself and pay for my medications - I think it's time to start considering Social Security Income (aka Disability Benefits).

I'm not sure if I'd be allowed to stay on my parents' insurance, or if I'd need government funded insurance. I'm not sure how the process would go. I don't even have a real medical team working with me who can vouch and say that I need these benefits. It's a big mess at the moment, and I'm not even sure how to start. Not to mention if I even have the energy or capability to start at the moment.

I suppose all of that is something to think about at a later time. Right now is the time to focus on surviving whatever the hell has gone wrong this time....